Ok noe don't get me wrong, I love receiving ANYTHING having to do with Urubear but today's scans were just TOOOOOO much for me to handle

The new scans on gazette_daily and the headers that
8written74word8 made for me...just GOD DAMN!!! THANK YOUUUUUU!!!

All I can say is...





...that I have literally fallen in love with the man with the dreamy eyes and the lustful look in his eyes...KOUYOU, you once again have made me go sdgfagffagfadgagagagrgha;gbo *babble* over you ... WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE SUCH PLEASURABLE BLISSFUL TORTURE!!!!!!

I have no words to describe my eternal love, devotion, and EVERYTHING towards him...he's just too ... GAH!!!! I can't explain it...it maybe temporary fangilism???

NO FREAKING WAY!!!! I've LOVED Kouyou Takashima for 2 years and counting, I mean not a crush either, THIS MEANS THAT I WOULD MAKE HIM THE HAPPIEST MAN ALIVE IF I WERE EVER WITH HIM!!! which I SADLY and DEVASTATINGLY know will NOT happen anytime soon, but I can dream right? XDDDDD

Anyhow, I just wanted to share my love for Kouyou Takashima AKA URUHA ♥

I am sure you ALL must be tired of hearing the same thing OVER AND OVER AND OVER but I'll never get tired of talking about him HAHA!!

Just a random post because i'm bored and because I can XDDD

First this...THIS MAG!!!! Thanks to rubyzinha for posting it on her page and on a community that for the life of me I can't remember which one it was XD, and mikaela_angel07 for sending it to me via MMS on my phone



Uruha...DARKER HAIR!!!!! *_* i'm crying here but in a good way...I love my wuwunaldobear = Urunaldobear...MY BOO!!! MY BEAR!!!

Poor Ruki looks like he wants to go back to bed as he rubs his sleepy eyes *huggles him*

Reita's hair...LOVING THE darker streaks

KAI is JUST utterly amazing, BOLD and smexeh...oh yeah ~_^

AOI's got the "WANT A PIECE OF ME?!" face to him

All in all, I hope we get some AMAZING shots...and even if they're the same poses the photographers make them do, either way, it'll STILL be amazing

Man, our boys make this gazemom proud *sniffles* OH MY GOD!!! SEEING THEM GROW!!! *sniffles and whimpers*

Ok, that's all for now, i'm bored and the kids are asleep...so yeah

And no I don't feel like doing the cut because I like sharing openly (that just sounded wrong XP)

HEY MY FRIENDS WHO I ADORE DEARLY ♥

Here is some info on what Thanksgiving is all about. I have always liked to know WHY it's celebrated

and YES there are several countries as well who celebrate this on different dates

So without any further adieu, I wish EVERYONE a Happy Thanksgiving and try not to over indulge XD

Once I get the table set tomorrow, i'll post some pics


en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thanksgiving_(United_States) just in case XD

here is my official death sentence... BECAUSE OF A CERTAIN MAN SHOWN ON HERE!!! WAAAAHHHH!!!!

It's the site that I think announces the pickups and pedals he uses and what not, if my google translator is accurate...I think they interviewed him on this

But the pic...DEAR FREAKING GOD!!! THIS IS MY RINALDO FOLKS!!! XD ... for those of you who read my previous post...it's an inside joke now XD




This was seen from the gazette's_OHP

My dreamboat, my angel...OH GOD HOW I LOVE THIS MAN!!!! KOUYOU TAKASHIMA!!! MY RINALDOOOO!!!! Or as I named him...MY URUNALDO!!! (lame I know HAHAHA!!)

Also thanks to mikaela_angel07 who sent me this in the morning through my phone...THANK YOU!!!!

for some reason I was bored and decided to look up my name in Wikipedia XD

go here

I can't believe my name dates back all the way from the 16th century and apparently it means "beautiful enchantress" XD

If the link's retarded, here's the info:

Armida
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Jump to: navigation, search
Rinaldo and Armida, by Francesco Hayez

Armida is a beautiful enchantress in Torquato Tasso's Jerusalem Delivered, who bewitched Rinaldo, one of the Crusaders, by her charms, as Circe did Ulysses, and who in turn, when the spell was broken, overpowered her by his love and persuaded her to become a Christian. The "Armida Palace" in which she enchanted Rinaldo has become a synonym for any merely visionary but enchanting palace of pleasure.

HAHA THIS MEANS KOUYOU (Uruha) IS MY RINALDO HAHAHA!!! Oh god, that would be hilarious XD

I'm like laughing my ass off here because I have ALWAYS hated my name XD

Ok, well I'm just bored and decided to share this info XD

To all my friends on here.

I would like to thank all of you for taking the time to reply to my posts.

I'm REALLY sorry for not replying back to these latest comments but there are times when I don't even go over MY own journal because my damn computer tends to freeze on me because I have a dinosaur machine

I think I only have 256 of RAM And an 80GB hard drive GRRRRR!!! it's been repaired 2 times...the first by a computer tech and the other by me with someone who had the XP software...I cannot afford a new machine at the moment either

Now as for my browsers...I had NEVER used mozilla in the past because I was always using explorer and my daughter would be on Mozilla...now I have been using mozilla because my crappy ass explorer has officially crapped out on me to the point of not even loading...and ALOT of the sites I visit have my passwords already stored and on there my daughter has alot of HER passwords stored on mozilla

See my dilemma, I just don't want you all to think that i'm being a bitch and not replying back, it's my damn computer that takes it sweet ass time to load

I cannot afford another machine at all, they're too expensive =(

Oh well, I just wanted to say that...love you all ♥♥♥♥♥

and thanks for all of your comments on my previous posts...i'm sowwies for not replying =(

GOMEN NASAI!! *lowers head in shame*
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And I have been feeling a little sick and flustered too...i'll explain as to why

if only there could be a day when I could do a HAPPY AND GIDDY "OMG I'M SO HAPPY POST" but I can't if ALOT of what's going on with me is the fact that I have not too many things to be happy about and I do apologize for that

on my MSN for example, my display would always have some Uruha icon and a band related message...I took that off...I have my reasons for that. the only place where I feel that I can fangirl about him and not be bashed for is on here or WITH a chosen few on my MSN and YAHOO...and you know who you are and thank you ^_^

not only that but I also HATE having people rub this and that in my face, it just gets to the point where I just want to shut them the hell up and tell them to leave me alone

My only happy moments are when i'm here at home joking with my kiddos (sadly it's short lived at times, even though they're my major reason for living) or when I fangirl with my gazegirls who I know understand me, but for those out there who don't FUCK OFF AND I MEAN THAT FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BLACK HEART!!!

I suggest to ALL of you out there to say the same thing to those people who don't get our fandom...it's a BEAUTIFUL thing to have, especially when you fangirl about the man you love the most which in my case it's KOUYOU TAKASHIMA AKA URUHA ♥

Here's my angel who keeps me going every day as well (along with my little kid demons XD):

This man here


My kids who are posted a few posts down and all my friends...Thank you ♥

Ok guys, i'm exhausted right now.

I had some ups and downs yesterday with my daughter's early birthday reunion

Her REAL b-day is the 9th but we celebrated it yesterday the 7th ^^

Here are a couple of pics of the monumental cake HAHAHA!!!




and



i'll post these 2 for now...and i'm not cutting this...too tired at the moment

Have you ever felt that no one understands you, have you ever been accused of being selfish, uncaring, self centered?

Have you ever had the finger pointed at you because YOU aren't the one understanding that other person?

I mean we all have trials and tribulations, some worse than others, we deal with it in different ways right?

Ok, now have you EVER had people throw stuff in your face like loving one thing more than the other?

it's sad when this happens on a frequesnt basis, it's sad how no one trusts you and how you trust that person.

This is random I know but I want some opnions on what you all think at times, ya know?

My kiddos made these just now, supposedly they're for Halloween tomorrow BUUUUT...they'll be GONE by then HAHAHA!!!!

Although they're still yummy!!




Thanks to froggy_skyttles who I sent the SMS to was able to re-send me this image to my e-mail since I am still not familiar with my phone yet HAHAHA!!!

It is crappy quality since I took the pic from my cell HAHAHA!!!

and YES the last 3 on the top are the Powerpuff girls made by my 8 year old =D

Hope you likies ^_^

It's Kai's birthday in Japan right now!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETY!!!!!

credits to gazette_daily for the pic ^_^



Otanjou-bi omedetou gozaimasu. We Love You!

I stole this line from you Jess...SORRY!!! I was too lazy to keep typing MUAHAHA!!!

For so long I have been meaning to put this here to get most of you to join me into HOPEFULLY get the GazettE here to the USA, I know this is TOTALLY far fetched but I am perserverant enough to get my goal accomplished XD

I have some banners under here that my daughter Tanya made, but the original pics are from gazette_daily

This is the myspace page that myself and my dear partner of ALL crime jessers0406 are managing, we are not gaining any moey off of this in any way, feel free to join us

(  everything under here )

I get my daily horoscope (more like horrorscope HAHAHA) through my e-mail, right? And it usually comes out accurate.

BUT JUMPING MEXICAN JUMPING BEANS!!!!! THIS CREEPED ME OUT!!! HOW THE FUCKING HELL DOES IT KNOW THAT I'M HAVING CASH PROBLEMS O_O

Dear Armida,
Here is your horoscope for
Monday, October 26:
Cash flow problems are all too likely right now -- but they're not really your fault! You still have to deal with the consequences, which is pretty much par for the course. Hang on and things get better soon.

More accurate than it could ever be, might I have a psychic spying on me? >.>

IF any kind kind soul can rip theirs and Versailles performances for me I will be forever grateful to you

I mean I was doing EVERYTHING that was indicated to be able to watch the fest, I also wanted to see the Finnish bands on there too ><. Manson. although I was never a fan of theirs, they still would have been a sight to see XDDD

But the ones i'm interested in the most are The GazettE and Versailles since they are my 2 faves although there are LOTS of other awesome bands there too ^_^

D'OH!!!! Once again when there's something I want, I cannot get *cries*...THIS FEST WAS ONE EVENT I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LOOKING forward to and I wasn't able to get the damn thing to work in my IE and stupid Mozilla Firefox doesn't support the app to DL the live streaming of the show

Well, I DO have one consolation...(view post before this one)

He's the one who guides me through my pain...I LOVE YOU KOUYOU!!! ♥

Ok, i'm going to babble mindlessly here, I mean I'm not going to make any sense at all, YOU KNOW WHY >_<

I cannot breath at this sight of this...he's left me totally...
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YES DAMMIT!!! FLATLINED!!!! WHY OH WHY MUST KOUYOU BE DEVASTATINGLY MEAN!!! WHY?!?!?! The more I see him taking away his inhibitions and being less shy, it makes me love him MORE AND MORE AND MORE AND MORE!!!

I see beyond the Uruha personna... 高島宏陽 (Kouyou Takashima) is what I see. I mean yes he's ASKING TO BE BANGED REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW!!! But as Kouyou he's begging to be protected and and and and >< oh you all know what I mean



Thanks to gazette_daily and rawkstarr23

Ok, I need to stop babbling seriously, but I LOVE HIS SUPERMODEL, SLUTTY, STRIKINGLY TEASING POSE DAMMIT!!!

YES YES he is a TEASE ><

I wanna cry now >< ><

DAMN I LOVE HIM SO FREAKING MUCH!!!!!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! D'OH!!!! DAGNABBING! WHIPPERSNAPPING!!! GAH!!! UGH!!!

Ok I feel much better now =D

Thanks for letting me vent

Got this from dimscene

So feel free to answer, short and sweet or long and detailed, whatever works XD

AND HAVE FUN!!!!!!

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

I'm bored so yeah XDDDDDD

Ok, I'm not sure if this is allowed here but i'll give it a go ^_^

This is regarding a new fic community that's almost NON-YAOI, I LOVE THE YAOI SMUT don't get me wrong but we decided to make a new comm. to where EVERYONE can have the chance to also write some het smut too ^_^



( Follow us MUAHAHAHA!!!! )

ok all, THESE are NOT the posters that are on Gazette Daily XD, hers have a flash glare XD...AND YES I GOT BOTH MY EDITIONS TODAYYYYY!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!

*does happy dance*

one is on my wall and the other is on my daughter's wall

My wall:


My daughter's wall:


And yes she took the pics because apparently I suck at it HAHAHA!!!

There's nothing like buying and all region DVD player to be able to enjoy these AWESOME dvd's in FULL TV SCREEN view and AWESOME picture quality *_*

In the desperate wait of the arrival of my DVD/CD I made the desperate move to SEE IT!!!! IT'S FREAKING AMAZING!!!!!! *_* *O*




Oh and by the way...I'M FEELING BETTER NOW 8D =D

I have been trying to keep a normal attitude this whole time.

I don't like to create drama in my life, I hate it.

But at this point, I cannot stand it anymore.

I'm crumbling on the inside, I don't think I can withstand anymore pain.

It's getting crucial, I try to keep a happy attitude, it's all superficial.

My kids are the only thing right now keeping me together from exploding.

I don't fix my hair anymore, don't wear makeup anymore, i'm always looking like I just got out of bed, I only go to work because I HATE missing, I PREFER to stay at work honestly that be at home. But honestly, I really don't care anymore, everything is meaningeless at this moment.

I can't dream because it's foolish, I can't have a man because of all the stuff that's going on out there, it SCARES me shitless to even think of giving my kids a stepfather.

I have NOOOO motivation at all for ANYTHING anymore.

I hate not having money yet I spend my money on a band that I love because they're my escape, they're ANOTHER thing that keeps me sane.

I am in a withering mess of tears, my strength is gone, I can't take anymore pain. I don't EVEN want to think of doing anything stupid because it's not the answer.

I know the man upstairs (god so he's called) is with me, but he's there to listen to me but he's not going to turn my life around.

No one in my family believes me when I say the truth about my mom WHO is the one putting me as the villain. I mean I do live in her house because I have nowhere else to go due to the lack of money that I have...I tried housing and section 8 but that because of what I earn PLUS my bonuses DO NOT qualify me for that EVEN having foodstamps >_< . I mean being a single mother of 3 living in a four bedroom house, DO YOU ALL honestly think that I can live on a monthly $1400.00 paycheck a month?


I didn't want my depresion to come back, but I HAVE all the motives to be like this.

I cry myself to sleep EVERY NIGHT that it's pathetic.

I cry alone, I have NO ONE to cry with, no one to hold me in their arms and let me cry it all out to become stronger, I have to hug a pillow and muffle my sobs because no one seems to care because i'm dramatic.

Yes folks, THIS IS THE REAL ME *sobbing*

I smile, laugh, and joke around yes but it's ALL superficial, deep down inside I just want to curl up into a ball and close EVERYTHING from my mind...I hate being like this, I have having no motivation.

Yes I know that one certain person who is ONLY a person on posters an in videos did change my life...and WHO am I kidding, that's ALL he is...an idol, a guitarrist who I respect, admire, love, look up to and that's all. he's only a MAN who I dream about almost every night because THOSE dreams are the only things that make me have a good night's sleep....and that keep me going

I'm sorry for the ramble but THIS is the only way I can let out

I'm going on a semi-hiatus.

I saw this on my f-list and I decided to give it a go...all the talk about religion led me to see about my 7 CAPITAL SINS!!!! MUAHAHAHA!!!!

I do have temper issues and sometimes I do feel REALLY sluggish and too damn lazy to do anything, i'll do them at my own time and at my own pace...remind you of someone? XDDDD

BUT I am an overall good person, only when triggered and provoked HAHAHA!!!!

HAVE FUN!!!

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Low

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